 23-08-2008, 11:17 AM
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becci23
Joined on 23-08-2008
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Hi I just need some advice.
I found out I was preg when I was 18 and I was really happy and excited both me and my partner (the father). My mum wasn't very happy as I was young but I still went ahead with it, everything was perfect untill I was about 7 months gone. I was at work when my partner come and told me he had took all my things back to my mum's and he didn't want to be with me anymore, I had no explanation as to why or nothing. He never contacted me directly again but he did text my mum to see how things was I think he just felt guilty and tried to make himself feel better.
Anyway I had no choice to bring up the baby on my own, the day I had my son I rang my ex to tell him and he came to the hospital the next day to see our son. I was very ill after having my son and had to stay in hospital for over a week. When I returned home (my mum's) my ex was comeing every day but never once brought a packet of nappies or nothing. Anyway after a few weeks it turned into comeing every few weeks then slowly turned into nothing at all no contact nothing I think he just wanted his name on the birth certificate. He already had 2 kids by 2 different women that he didn't see. I suffered from postnatal depression and went through the most awfull time of my life. In time I started to get over it and get on with my life.
After a year and half on my own I met someone else but was weary about getting into another relationship, but he was great with my son, he had 3 kids of his own who he seen regular and he seemed like a great dad. After being together almost a year I fell pregnant again but this time everything was totally perfect it was a hole different experience for me and I loved every minute of it. I couldn't of met a better person he helped me and supported me in every way.
It's now a year and half down the line and things strted to go sour this year it was always arguments and the slightest little thing he would pack his stuff and leave and I wouldn't hear from him for a few weeks then he would decide to come home when he felt like it. I found out I was pregnant again about 5 weeks ago (was a total shock) I asked my partner what he thought about it and he said it's up2 you it's your body I had no support what so ever, but 3 day's later he caused an argument and left and told me to have an abortion, I just don't understand how he can be so horrible when he was so perfect last time.
I have decided to keep the baby and it was a hard decision to make as my family are not very happy as they said it's history repeating itself but I just can't bring myself to get rid. I have told my ex that I'm keeping the baby and he said he's glad but how can he tell me to get rid 1 min then say he's happy the next. He has also told me that he has slept with someone else and he's over me and never want's to see me again so I'm getting very mixed signals.
I hate him for all of this, but I'm so scared I'm going to suffer from postnatal depression again because of all the stress, I keep having doubt's what to do and how I'm going to cope with 3 children on my own. And Ill prob never have another relationship again because who is going to take someone on with 3 kids by 2 different dad's. I hate myself for getting into this situation again how could I be so stupid after last time.
I feel like I have no real support from anyone and feel really depressed and alone. I can't stop crying and feel like the whole world is against me. Can someone please give me some advice
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